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My cry for help dealing with PTSD counties to go unanswered by my command. As if
I am playing an elaborate game. I have been diagnosed with PTSD since 2007.
Since being stationed at Fort Bragg since June 2012 and have been plagued
with . I know That I am not the only in the Area that has this problem or
the only one who has issues with their units command. However I know I know
that the inpatient felicities 6th south on Fort Bragg are a Joke. The only
job is to stabilize you and send you back to your unit. Most of the time the
issues that you go in for are not addressed. You leave there feeling worse
than when you go in. Then once you're out you must follow up with Behavioral
Health then your appointments are so few and far between at most your may be
able to get 2 appointments a month then you may get or may not get to see
the same psychiatrist because sometime the just leave without notice I May
self have been diagnosis with PTSD, Alcoholism, anxiety ADHD and insomnia
These issues have gotten so bad that I am now getting sent though the MEB
for it.
I am afraid of losing control. It seems like every day its becoming
harder and harder for me to get up and put on a smiling face, pretending
that I am not sad. Sometimes I have to go and sit in my car because I just
feel out of control of my own emotions and spend 20 minutes crying. I spend
a lot of time alone just thinking about my life and it seems hard to cope
with the simple things I find myself drowning in a sea of pain.
For the first time in my life I am afraid, I feel as If I am not in control
of my life. It seems as if my mind wants me to down the path of
self-destruction, yet there is something in me that won't allow me to quit.
During the day my mind can stay engaged on something most of the time,
however once night falls my life changes totally. I find myself wanting to
go to sleep and being exhausted not from working, but from my mind just
racing all day. Even with the taking 4 different medication that by
themselves would make me drowsy.
They Army have drilled in our heads that we must be resilient and remain
flexible. I can only bend so much before I break. It's starting to become
abundantly clear that this battle with PTSD is one I am left to fight alone,
at times I feel close to surrendering. I fear I am not getting better, and I will most certainly deteriorate more as time goes on unless I can figure this all out.
I am playing an elaborate game. I have been diagnosed with PTSD since 2007.
Since being stationed at Fort Bragg since June 2012 and have been plagued
with . I know That I am not the only in the Area that has this problem or
the only one who has issues with their units command. However I know I know
that the inpatient felicities 6th south on Fort Bragg are a Joke. The only
job is to stabilize you and send you back to your unit. Most of the time the
issues that you go in for are not addressed. You leave there feeling worse
than when you go in. Then once you're out you must follow up with Behavioral
Health then your appointments are so few and far between at most your may be
able to get 2 appointments a month then you may get or may not get to see
the same psychiatrist because sometime the just leave without notice I May
self have been diagnosis with PTSD, Alcoholism, anxiety ADHD and insomnia
These issues have gotten so bad that I am now getting sent though the MEB
for it.
I am afraid of losing control. It seems like every day its becoming
harder and harder for me to get up and put on a smiling face, pretending
that I am not sad. Sometimes I have to go and sit in my car because I just
feel out of control of my own emotions and spend 20 minutes crying. I spend
a lot of time alone just thinking about my life and it seems hard to cope
with the simple things I find myself drowning in a sea of pain.
For the first time in my life I am afraid, I feel as If I am not in control
of my life. It seems as if my mind wants me to down the path of
self-destruction, yet there is something in me that won't allow me to quit.
During the day my mind can stay engaged on something most of the time,
however once night falls my life changes totally. I find myself wanting to
go to sleep and being exhausted not from working, but from my mind just
racing all day. Even with the taking 4 different medication that by
themselves would make me drowsy.
They Army have drilled in our heads that we must be resilient and remain
flexible. I can only bend so much before I break. It's starting to become
abundantly clear that this battle with PTSD is one I am left to fight alone,
at times I feel close to surrendering. I fear I am not getting better, and I will most certainly deteriorate more as time goes on unless I can figure this all out.