PTSD from MST

BigRed813

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I’m new to this forum. I’m putting in my claim for my PTSD with MST. I’m having a difficult time with page 3 of 21-0781a. I’m not very good at expressing myself and I feel like I’m gonna short change myself. Are they asking my behavior changes from incident to present day? Any advice or help would be appreciated. I just hate talking about this subject.

Here’s my issue: when I was in training, there was a fellow male student that would flash me and another female sailor his genitalia, whenever we patrolled the male floor of the barracks. She came to me and told me what she had experienced and we decided to talk to the SAVI (Sex Assault Victim Intervention) advocate. She told us that, “You don’t want to start out your career like this. This is a very small field.”

My MST happened twice by an instructor in the barracks. I was so afraid to disclose because I thought I’d get kicked out of the Navy and sent back home. He was the duty officer and broke into my room while I was studying alone in my barracks room. I failed the test I was studying for and was held back in school. After the second assault, I had received an unofficial article 86, when I left without my liberty card (he was the officer on duty), so there’s really no records. I wasn’t allowed to take my promotion exam. After a two month hold, I finally graduated last in my class. I then went to the fleet.

Did great as a sailor and had high marks. Revived 4.0 evaluations. Got out of the Navy after my four years due to the back and hip issues and got a great $100k a year job overseas. Got promoted and everything. I was a rockstar! Two years later, a new Navy detachment came to my location. I was in the operations office and I noticed a particular name on the white board . I asked for clarification of the name and they E-7 confirmed it was indeed who I thought it was. Unbeknownst to me, that E-7 called my rapist and let him know that I was working there. I was approached one day walking at work by an E-9. He greets me and goes to shake my hand and he says, “You’re Staci! CJ told me about you.” He then went on to say all the vulgar things he’d like to do to me. When I read his name tag on his uniform, it was ISCM X. The husband of the SAVI advocate who discouraged me to report the sexual harassment. He did this on a few occasions, both at work and outside in public venues on base. The E-8 and E-9 had been working together and the E-9 was on temporary orders to my location. My behavior at work changed. Started to take lots of sick leave and unpaid leave for weeks at a time to avoid him. Started to have disciplinary issues and lost my job within four months. Pain became unbearable and my marriage suffered.

I came back to Florida and my husband and I split two months from my arrival home. I was distant and felt lost without the job I worked so hard for. I didn’t work for a seven months and was seeking treatment for my back pain and stress. Due to financial hardships, I took another job overseas on short notice. Had no issues there for about a year and a half (besides pain). I was promoted twice and managed over a dozen personal. I started to notice I was being stalked by a px clerk. We had no other interaction other than me checking out of the store with my ID. I rebuffed his advances, but I became concerned when he would try to follow me home at 4am when I got off work. I stopped going to the px and limiting my time outside of work. He couldn’t get to me if I was at work. My employee comes to me one day and told me not to leave the building. The px worker had carved STACI in his bicep and kept the bloody napkin in his wallet. He was then removed from the base for my safety. I felt unsafe regardless. Again, my work performance suffered and I started talking off more time until I lost my job. At this time, my clearance is now expired and no other company will hire me without one. What I was trained for. Had really bad depression and anxiety. Back surgeries and most physical problems the last 10 years.

Finally got a job out of desperation and became a waitress. I got a stalker with my first two weeks on the job. This man was finally escorted off the premises after he offered my coworkers money for my personal information for days straight. Another guest was elbowed in the face after he touched me with permission (he startled me). I tried to remain positive until I met a group of active duty Navy guys. We started talking and we realized that we did the same job and had training around the same time. One of the guys unknowingly brought up my rapist and spoke about him with the highest regards. It was deja vu. I was instantly taken back to all the emotions all over agin. I then started missing work and lost my job within a few weeks of this incident.

How do I put that into the right words?
 

RonG

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I’m new to this forum. I’m putting in my claim for my PTSD with MST. I’m having a difficult time with page 3 of 21-0781a. I’m not very good at expressing myself and I feel like I’m gonna short change myself. Are they asking my behavior changes from incident to present day? Any advice or help would be appreciated. I just hate talking about this subject.

Here’s my issue: when I was in training, there was a fellow male student that would flash me and another female sailor his genitalia, whenever we patrolled the male floor of the barracks. She came to me and told me what she had experienced and we decided to talk to the SAVI (Sex Assault Victim Intervention) advocate. She told us that, “You don’t want to start out your career like this. This is a very small field.”

My MST happened twice by an instructor in the barracks. I was so afraid to disclose because I thought I’d get kicked out of the Navy and sent back home. He was the duty officer and broke into my room while I was studying alone in my barracks room. I failed the test I was studying for and was held back in school. After the second assault, I had received an unofficial article 86, when I left without my liberty card (he was the officer on duty), so there’s really no records. I wasn’t allowed to take my promotion exam. After a two month hold, I finally graduated last in my class. I then went to the fleet.

Did great as a sailor and had high marks. Revived 4.0 evaluations. Got out of the Navy after my four years due to the back and hip issues and got a great $100k a year job overseas. Got promoted and everything. I was a rockstar! Two years later, a new Navy detachment came to my location. I was in the operations office and I noticed a particular name on the white board . I asked for clarification of the name and they E-7 confirmed it was indeed who I thought it was. Unbeknownst to me, that E-7 called my rapist and let him know that I was working there. I was approached one day walking at work by an E-9. He greets me and goes to shake my hand and he says, “You’re Staci! CJ told me about you.” He then went on to say all the vulgar things he’d like to do to me. When I read his name tag on his uniform, it was ISCM X. The husband of the SAVI advocate who discouraged me to report the sexual harassment. He did this on a few occasions, both at work and outside in public venues on base. The E-8 and E-9 had been working together and the E-9 was on temporary orders to my location. My behavior at work changed. Started to take lots of sick leave and unpaid leave for weeks at a time to avoid him. Started to have disciplinary issues and lost my job within four months. Pain became unbearable and my marriage suffered.

I came back to Florida and my husband and I split two months from my arrival home. I was distant and felt lost without the job I worked so hard for. I didn’t work for a seven months and was seeking treatment for my back pain and stress. Due to financial hardships, I took another job overseas on short notice. Had no issues there for about a year and a half (besides pain). I was promoted twice and managed over a dozen personal. I started to notice I was being stalked by a px clerk. We had no other interaction other than me checking out of the store with my ID. I rebuffed his advances, but I became concerned when he would try to follow me home at 4am when I got off work. I stopped going to the px and limiting my time outside of work. He couldn’t get to me if I was at work. My employee comes to me one day and told me not to leave the building. The px worker had carved STACI in his bicep and kept the bloody napkin in his wallet. He was then removed from the base for my safety. I felt unsafe regardless. Again, my work performance suffered and I started talking off more time until I lost my job. At this time, my clearance is now expired and no other company will hire me without one. What I was trained for. Had really bad depression and anxiety. Back surgeries and most physical problems the last 10 years.

Finally got a job out of desperation and became a waitress. I got a stalker with my first two weeks on the job. This man was finally escorted off the premises after he offered my coworkers money for my personal information for days straight. Another guest was elbowed in the face after he touched me with permission (he startled me). I tried to remain positive until I met a group of active duty Navy guys. We started talking and we realized that we did the same job and had training around the same time. One of the guys unknowingly brought up my rapist and spoke about him with the highest regards. It was deja vu. I was instantly taken back to all the emotions all over agin. I then started missing work and lost my job within a few weeks of this incident.

How do I put that into the right words?
You expressed yourself quite well. In fact, as a person who used to write portions of engineering research proposals for a university (and prepare the accompanying budgets), I think it is excellent.

I have no claim information that will help you, but I wish you the best of luck.

If you would prefer to use a forum/section that is limited to female veterans (another site), send a private message to me and I will give be you the URL.

Ron
 

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Your post is quite clear. I think you will do a good job on the form. You just need to be clear about your martial/personal and job struggles that have occured since your MST.
 

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Do you have a diagnosis with a private provider or the VA?
 
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