Well well well I am a pissed off soldier!!! (I had 2 tours in Iraq, and a short tour in Kosovo).
I don't know what to do here!!!
I'm one of those soldiers from JBLM that was going through a med board. California Army National Guard.
I was medevac'd out of theater
(KOSOVO...after I got into a fist fight with my 1st SG and threating to kill him)
and after two years all of a sudden... I am fit for duty!!! WOW!!!
then I find out that the guy in charge at Madigan was relieved from his position for misdiagnosing soldiers on purpose!!!
I called after I received my letter stating that I could be reevaluated by signing and submitting it in.
Well I submitted the letter and long story short I was sent back to JBLM for reevaluation and after a one hour interview with a major from FT. Drum, He said to me "I you were under my care I could really help you"
So I said "well here I am"
BUT he said "I'm only here for reevaluating soldiers, and I'm in New York, so I can't".
Then he went on with telling me that he sides with the original evaluation of a mood disorder and or adjustment disorder...
I wanted to PUNCH HIM!!!
I was again sent home with an even bigger thumb up my ass!!! Now after all that I am no better off.
The V.A. has finally rated me;
70% PTSD
10% left shoulder
10% right ankle
10% tinnitus
With an over all rating of 80% and I received 0%'s for my hearing loss, my upper and lower back pain, nasal surgery, and dry eye syndrome. It doesn't even mention that I can't sleep right and I have sleep apnea, the V.A. gave me a sleep pap machine.
But non the less they sent me home, back to my unit and back to my Guard Tech job. Well so far everything has been a hardship for me, the stress of keeping up with the job and being the go to guy for the unit and the stress from trying to be a good leading SSG, has taken it's toll once again. My back has spazzed out again to the point where my hips hurt just by walking and standing to long. I had to use my own medical insurance to find out what was going on with my back...I have two bulging disks on my cervical spine and two minor bulging disks on my lower lumbar and lots of arthritis through out my entire back!!!.
I'm tired, I'm lost, my wife is sick of me, I'm on disability due to my back problems, and that has just been taken away from me, I sometimes feel like why even bother trying anymore... if it weren't for the meds that I'm on to keep me somewhat steady I probably would have done something stupid by now. But whatever!!! I'm really losing hope here.