You know it is h*ll going through life trying to do the right thing and doing your best. I would expect this of most people in the military and the compassion toward a fellow warrior who has fallen on the field of battle or at the BX/PX buying that fat free soda. The fact that I am learning as you is there are more self righteous achievers than battle buddies who will walk right on by you.
I will spare you my encouragement but will tell you that I have had enough and fought back today myself. I apologized to the hospital commander that I did not informed her of an infraction that has been happening with a senior NCO retiring on AD and receiving a MSN for her retirement. I explained that after the last time I did the right thing a couple of years ago the beating (not literal) was horrific and I could not do it again in this state, but I did start it anyways. As I was leaving my office to go, the flt comm (my immed sup) stopped me and informed me we should talk about this first, we did one year ago. She then threatened me that somehow I violated regs by not informing her earlier of going above her head. I told her I could always bypass and go straight to the IG. I informed the Hosp Commander of the threat and she was very shocked not only of this but all the trouble I have been receiving.
This is far from over and I have no idea where I will gather the energy to continue this fight tomorrow but it is my duty to report infractions. I expect a great deal of knives in my back from this just like the last time. I have still not stopped shaking or crying , just what people want to see a 49 yr old MSgt crying. We have a choice and it must be chosen wisely. Have your ducks in order and go in eyes open. I told her nobody should be treated this way simply because of falling ill, we still deserve to be treated fairly. This will probably be my first 1 EPR.
Don’t you just hate the person who is always happy with a smile, you just want to punch them out. I’m that guy and it is all a front to keep me from crying all day long. I have to force myself to go to work, I need to hide sometimes during the day just to get by, and then I have to force myself to go home as well but life goes on. We all need to deal with life the best that we can and I'm hoping things get better because who wants to hire someone like this.
You know what, I'm thinking I'm going to have to go to MH tomorrow after reading this.
