It is.... be proud of what you have done but understand that it was in the past. You can't shake the experiences but you can evolve into something new. In my opinion, too many veterans only identify with what they were and never flip that page. It will always be part of you but the sooner you realize that it is over and others don't care, the better the transition will be. My thoughts is that you can sit there and label yourself as a " disabled veteran" or you can take those experiences/ lessons learned and turn it into a positive. Okay, enough of my thoughts. I wish you the best in whatever the future holds. Just remember, that monthly paycheck gives you stability, an opportunity/ flexibility to find a new path and purpose ( yes I struggled with alcohol and my identity getting out and it took a job unrelated to the military to have this insight) truth be told I still struggle but at the end of the day, it was a " former job".....