Sick of this bureaucratic bulls***

[AttitudeEra]

I'm burnt out on all of this MEB, VA, IDES, bureaucratic bullshit. I'm too exhausted to go into all the details of why I feel so fed up. If it's not dumb ass, incompetent MEB personnel making mistakes that prolong this process, it's an unethical one trying to find a way to make sure I get low-balled on my benefits. If it's not that, it's my leadership trying to make sure I don't leave here unscathed and making my life as difficult as possible in retaliation for me being med boarded. It's always some behind the scenes, bureaucratic, political bullshit interfering with me getting the medical care that I need. There's no objectivity in the military healthcare system. It's always something. It's hilarious how the DOD and our military leaders pretend to not know why veterans are so disillusioned and end up killing ourselves.

On top of the MEB bullshit, I'm in constant pain/exhausted and have to get labs and test done that I have to wait months in advance for, which prolongs this dumbass process and causes me to suffer even longer. The MEB process is stressful enough, but being physically ill and weak 90% of the time is making it unbearable. I should go back to the inpatient ward, but that would open up a can of worms with my chain of command, which will make my life more miserable than it already is. At this point, I'm already on the edge, and having to deal with my leadership's disdain towards me will undoubtedly send me over the edge. I have literally 0 support in my unit and any involvement from them would only serve to worsen my situation.

I'm sick of this shit and there are too many catch-22's when it comes to a service member getting adequate care within the military healthcare system. The harsh truth is that none of these so-called patient advocates really give a fuck either. We're just objects and numbers. If the VA scandal wouldn't have gotten media attention, it would be 10 times worse. The saddest thing is that our "sacrifices" don't mean shit in the big scheme of things. We do all this shit and end up with all of these ailments, just to end up begging to be treated like decent human beings by our military healthcare system. It's so damn fake and pointless. This bureaucratic bullshit will never end.

I'm running on empty and I just want this shit to be over.

 

[Craig2356]

If you are having that many problems with the process or the people and chain behind it, hold them accountable and contact your senator/congress person. One phone call will make wonders, ask me how I know.

Trust me, they will run as wild as you allow them to, be specific and have your facts straight -- the rest will take care of itself.

Best wishes!

 

[tony292]

Life under the gun of IDES is very harsh. Our imaginations run wild with all of the anxiety of the multitude of negative things that could happen. I spent 17.5 year of active service and neither Navy Boot camp, SERE school, nor Army Officer candidate School could hold a candle to IDES. IDES was absolutely the most stressful thing I had ever dealt with. I'd rather do SERE 2-3 times than IDES once. IDES wrecked my career and almost wrecked my marriage.

 

[chaplaincharlie]

It is stressful. You may want to hire an attorney, just to reduce your stress. It might be worth every penny spent. attorney involvement has a way of changing the mix.

 

[adubz33]

@AttitudeEra It's very stressful but you got to find outlets. I absolutely hate being here and having to wake up every morning to be an "extra" to my command just because I'm on a med board. I've been threatened with LOIs and counseling chits for not participating in PT that clearly I can't participate in. Nobody truly understands the IDES process unless they have went through it themselves or are extremely close with someone who has. The natural connotation with med hold seems to be vacation. But it's definitely not. The only thing I can suggest is create and utilize outlets. I physically leave town every weekend because it's to the point where I am so drained from everything that I let it all marinate on the weekends and I end up laying in my bed and eating my feelings. On top of my PCM not believing me nor my off-base specialists about any of my conditions. Just look toward the light. Looks like you just did your C&P results so you unfortunately are just beginning the process but you never know how quick it could take. I know it's hard to let everything just bounce off of you but you need try and learn how or it will just deteriorate you.